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hi!

i'm your everyday average artist student; i like to think myself at least as unique as my peers, maybe a little less, nothing too out of the ordinary. my personality has to be complex, everyone's is, but i could probably describe myself and my interests with just a few words; for example, i like good music and unrealistic but satisfying stories of love and hope and achieving goals, ancient chinese and japanese culture, matters of the carnal desires, and pretty and pleasing things of all magnitudes. as for my personality, i often hear myself being described as kind, cheerful, confident, and funny, other times i'm perceived as snappy, moody, scary, or easy to annoy, so i find it difficult to pin down my "default" state properly. i'm a calculating, anxious wreck with a calm, smiling mask of steel, easy to see through once you know me but winning enough to fool the unassuming.

i like to think myself pretty calm and easy-going, open to new things by choice even as i dread the unknown. i am, as understood by myself, pretty unaware of my emotions, and often let myself be controlled by them to see what happens. but, i am also very interested in detangling my wires to see why i am the way i am, why i do what i do. i will cry if i get hurt because it's not a sign of weakness, and i will smile if my eyes meet with someone else's because i can't not; i don't know much but i am curious and would like to know myself as only i can, but also from a bit of a third person's perspective, turning myself inside out and creating a psychological profile.

i don't know how to use Dreamwidth just yet, nor do i know what i'll use it for once i do, but i can hopefully utilize it as a type of corner where i can ramble in an awfully mysterious-seeming way like i did just above, and not delete what i wrote for fear of looking silly and flashy.

pleased to meet you! feel free to chat me up any time!